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Gland >> u're right andrew, kindness sometimes doesn't pay, but Jesus teaches us something else. our aim of doing good unto others is not to seek their favour, but to please God. n u pleased Him!
AC >> how would we noe if we please him? by feelin upsad? abit werid huh?


okay. i'm oso kinda experiencing a similar struggle as his. but i read a book (The Prayer of Jabez by Bruce Wilkinson) where the author talks abt praying for the expansion of God's ministry thru his life. i'm gonna just extract bits and pieces of tt chapter here. i hope you'd be able to still get the whole picture and understand wat he's trying to tell us:


I just couldn't shake the feeling that I was the wrong man for the job. Extremely upset, I decided to seek the cousel of a trusted older man, John Mitchell. ...

"Son, " he said, in his kindly brogue, "that feeling you are running from is called dependence. It means you are walking with the Lord Jesus. Actually, the second you're not feeling dependent is the second you've backed away from truly living by faith."

I didn't like what I heard. "You're saying, Dr. Mitchell, that feeling that I just can't do it is what I'm supposed to be feeling?"

"Why certainly, young man!" he said, beaming. "That's the one all right."

It's a frightening and utterly exhilarating truth, isn't it? As God's chosen, blessed sons and daughters, we are expected to attempt something large enough that failure is guaranteed...unless God steps in. Take a minute to prayerfully try to comprehend how contrary that truth is to everything you would humanly choose:

1. It goes beyond common sense.
2. It contradicts your previous life experience.
3. It seems to disregard your feelings, training, and need for security.
4. It sets you up to look like a fool and a loser.


so Andrew, wat i'm trying to say is, you knew you were doing the right thing but you wanted to see tangible results frm ur kind actions, such as others being kind to you too and God being pleased. This shows tt you're depending on God to bless you, which is not wrong at all. I guess you just have to trust God to bless you in other ways you wouldn't have expected. it's like the above points 1, 3 and 4.

i hope this clears up some air.

After watching DOOM,
which might be a trashy show for some,
we have come to an important concept about the soul.
We MUST be pure in our thinking and our actions.
There is really no point hiding behind some good guy's mask
when your heart is black thoroughly inside-out.
Still don't get what i am talking about?

i am going to spoil the movie for those who haven't watched it yet.
In DOOM,
we have these creatures who have this extra pair of chromosomes
that make them stronger, faster and heal at a faster rate.
it all started when the extra chromosome was injected into a criminal.
he mutated into this monster
that could turn others into monsters like himself.
now this extra pair of chromosomes came from an ancient civilisation on Mars.
they were supposed to be superhumans.
and they were forced to actually evacuate Mars
and go to Earth for another existence.
what forced them to do that in the first place?
the monsters.
and this twenty fourth pair was artificially injected into these super humans too.
they knew bio engineering.

the bottom line of these all is that
our thoughts and actions have a certain impact on our bio-chemistry.
whether its our neurotransmitter or some kind of process
that evil men have that good men do not have.
hence one day when such a judgement comes unto us.
are we ready to say we are pure?
only when such a substance is injected into us
then we would know whether we wil be monsters or super humans.
it is a more extreme version of judgement or a test of purity.

In life, God can see our blackness
and our imperfections.
the darkness of our souls emnates from our bodies
like a dirt patch to God.
and He will try His best to ask His son to do some cleaning.
IF we let Him.
because the way He works is if we accept Him into the room of our minds.
Imagine it this way.
the Cleaner is outside a room.
He knocks on the door and says "house keeping".
but it is met with a very rude gesture or a "do not disturb" sign.
that means we do not accept Him.
it's as bad as saying "screw off" to a Christian that talks to you.
a rather bad analogy.
i hope you'll get it.

So, if we want to be ready to face God and say "yo, i'm pure",
we have to be really sure about it.
after all, you ARE in the presence of God, the creator.
i'm sure you would want to look presentable.
clothes are of the material world.
our souls are of the spiritual one.
i'm sure you wouldn't want God to a patch of dark here
and there on your soul right?

so what are u waiting for?
Open your mind to the Cleaner
and let him do the cleansing for you.
"Ask and you shall receive"
if u commit a sin, repent and ask for forgiveness.
if you are truly repentent, it'll be wiped off like a miracle detergent.

God bless